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    Friend

    September 12, 2011

    “When we honestly ask ourselves which persons in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”

    —
    Henri J.M. Nouwen, The Road to Daybreak: A Spiritual Journey

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    Falling

    September 11, 2011

    “Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.”

    I fell, bruised, picked myself up. A couple of times. And each time I am afraid to fall again. Because it gets harder to pick myself up.

    So can I please stop falling?

    For once, please?

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    Running Away

    September 10, 2011

    I have been teasing her that she is always running away when someone is available and shows even the slightest hint of interest.

    And when she started teasing me the same thing recently, I came up with all kinds of reasons, though deep down I knew these reasons were not true. I search within to find the answer why I wanted to give up, and I cannot find any.

    Perhaps I am tired, perhaps I am unwilling to wait, or perhaps I just want to know the results immediately.

    However, it is this thought that scares me most, perhaps I do not believe in it any more.

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    Crossing The Line

    August 31, 2011

    “I am holding back, because I am afraid. I am afraid that if I keep pushing forward, I will cross this imaginary line. A line that once crossed, will bring great pain and hurt if things do not work out.

    I still remember the last time it happened, the excruciating pain, the emptiness, the hurt, the tears.

    I believe I am still afraid.”

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    Changing Jobs

    August 21, 2011

    I managed to meet up with my ex-bosses and ex-colleagues in KL recently when I was there for work.

    We were discussing about changing jobs, and my ex-boss said that when you find a good reason to leave your job, it is the right time to go. If there are no push factors, then look for pull factors. Also, the 20-30% salary increment is to ‘compensate’ for the risk undertaken to join a new environment.

    I agree with him. After listing down my push factors to leave, he replied that these are no longer push factors, they are actually shove factors.

    I came back to Singapore, more determined than ever to leave.

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    The Road Not Taken

    August 15, 2011

    Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
    And sorry I could not travel both
    And be one traveler, long I stood
    And looked down one as far as I could
    To where it bent in the undergrowth;
    Then took the other, as just as fair,
    And having perhaps the better claim,
    Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
    Though as for that the passing there
    Had worn them really about the same,
    And both that morning equally lay
    In leaves no step had trodden black.
    Oh, I kept the first for another day!
    Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
    I doubted if I should ever come back.
    I shall be telling this with a sigh
    Somewhere ages and ages hence:
    Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
    I took the one less traveled by,
    And that has made all the difference

    – Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken

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    Status Quo

    July 10, 2011

    There is no update on this blog, mainly because everything is still the same.

    Work, eat, sleep. Rinse, repeat.

    I am just shuffling aimlessly. One direction seems to be just like the other. There is no objective, no destination.

    And hence, there is no life.

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