People like us will not fall in love easily, because when we do, we literally throw ourselves into the relationship. And because of this, we also get hurt badly. And because we get hurt badly, we tend not to fall in love easily.
I understand how it feels when you said that when the relationship ended, you view the whole world in black and white, that you cannot stop thinking of him, that you cry every second, that you walk like a zombie. How you wanted to end it all just to stop the pain, how you just want to dash across the road because the pain and sadness were just too much to bear.
I understand because, I was once in your shoes.